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Sustainable Philanthropy 2

23 April 2009

We have been taught to give until it hurts. But in these times, such an advice seems …impractical. Yes, we should continue giving but in order to do that, we also have to protect our ability to give.

I remember the time when a woman managed to win a million pesos in the game show Deal Or No Deal. Then, everyone in the Philippines was astonished (or envious?) when she gave it all away as charity to an NGO. Until now, I still keep wondering: How did this woman find the selflessness to commit this act? And furthermore, was donating all of the money the best thing to do in her situation?

I don’t think I will ever find the answer to the first question (only God knows why). However, I can wrestle with the second. Clearly, the woman did a very noble act. Donating a million pesos is a big deal. But what if she had instead stuffed it in, say, a mutual fund, waited out for a few years, and when the harvest was ready, decided to give dividends to the organization in a recurring basis?

With this, the million pesos will still be stuck in the mutual fund earning more money, and getting bigger, over time. Sure, with this decision, what the woman can give each time would be paltry in comparison to giving a million pesos outright. But I am also pretty sure that, during the course of her life, she would have given more money if she pursued this course of action.

For example, instead of giving a million pesos in 2007, she could have given close to Php 1,600,000 in a 20-year period using the million pesos as an initial investment (This may be unrealistic. In that case, kindly let me know because I am an English major, not a Finance genius. My assumptions are that she invested it in a money market fund which guarantees 8% annual ROI in dividends. I also did not take into account that money in these funds grow exponentially. So there.).

Looking at some big foundations, I think they also use this model. They receive money. Then, they give out grants and everything, but the money they give out for charitable purposes are but a small part of their total assets. Why? It is because much of their assets are tied up in investment machines, earning more money as time goes by.

For some, this can be considered appalling (Why are they doing that? They are a charitable institution for crying out loud! They shouldn’t be greedy!) but this practice does make business sense. The foundation is simply trying to ensure the continuity of its operations and by not giving all, it does just this. They are simply protecting their ability to give.

Paradoxically speaking, it has to give less in order to give more.

As a final word, I don’t know what happened to the woman and I also don’t know what the NGO did with the million pesos. But I hope that they invested some amount rather than used it all to pay their expenses.

My Vision

One time ago, Attorney Riza Baldovino was the Chair of the Humanities Division of the Ateneo de Davao University. And during her tenure, she had to "endure" interviewing one scrawny college kid who was secretly wondering why he's in that moment (if I remember correctly, that interview was for a school award, where you get to win a shiny new medal if you know how to sell yourself properly to the school's almighty beings. Rough example: "Hey, you have no choice but to let me have this award. I've got a lot of extra-curricular and co-curricular activities under my belt and also some senior positions in various organizations too. I've helped out many people and I'm pretty sure I embody all the values this school is trying to teach. Did I mention that I get high grades? Or that I'm super confident? Do good looks count? " You get the picture.)

That boy is me, apparently. Inevitably, Ma'am Riza asked me what my plans are in life. As for my answer, I didn't share my plans with her. My contention was that if I did not share my plans to others, especially her, then I would be safe. I would be safe because if I turn out to be a failure in the end, then nobody would know because I kept it a secret. On the other hand, if I did reach my goals, then it's ok.

Recently, I had to do a bit of thinking whether my contention is still correct. I had the chance to chat with Noewen Lamoste some time ago and, inevitably (again), the topic of our conversation shifted to what our plans were. And you know what she said? Well, she told me she wouldn't share it because of the same reason I gave to Ma'am Riza (It dawned on me that she asked me the same question several months ago and got the same answer).

Now, I'm having a change of heart. Yes, not sharing your plans with others is safe. But I realized that it does not help me one bit. That's because by keeping on doing this, I'm shutting myself from people who could otherwise help me achieve my goal. Also, I think I'll be more pressured to try my very best if I know a lot of people know what I want to do (consider it old-fashioned "hubris/heroic boasting").

So what are my plans? Well, I would rather call it a vision.

Imagine this:

A successful group of companies made up of a hundred home-grown, Mindanao-based SMEs (and a few large ones na rin siguro)

That’s it. Simple and daunting at the same time. Of course, I have to tell you that I’m heavily influenced by the book Heroic Leadership by Chris Lowney and I intend to infuse his four pillars of leadership (Love, Self-awareness, Ingenuity, Heroism) to this vision.

I also have to tell you that I came up with this when I asked myself one fine morning, “Why is it that the other provinces in the country have Aboitiz, Ayalas, Gokongweis, Lopezes and (write famous name of big and powerful business clan here) and Mindanao does not have any?” (Looking back, that was ignorant of me. Some families in Mindanao have made a name for themselves in the business world. However, they still aren’t as popular internationally or even in the national level) I’m not saying that the “Bataller/Evangelio clan ought to be the next big thing in business and I intend to make that happen.” My vision is far from that actually. What I’m envisioning about is a group of companies wholly owned by Mindanawons, a community of people bound together by a common cultural and geographic identity.

The implications of the vision is sort of, well, great. Grupo Mindanao (The name of this group of companies, since I can’t think of anything more decent as of the moment) will be a huge boon to the region, erasing away decades of economic distress brought about by armed conflict and ethnic violence. It is going to be a huge brand, both promoting the region and further developing it.

For the promotion part, having Grupo Mindanao would give out the message that, “Hey! You thought Mindanao is a land of broken promises and endless strife? Well, look at us. We have an organic business organization that can rival the biggest corporations in the country. You still think that Mindanao is for the dogs?” I’m imagining a lot of investments coming in already.

For the development part, I’m thinking about Grupo Mindanao as the starting point, the front-end, for a big civic development foundation that will rival only NEDA. Think of it as CSR designed to benefit an entire island. With good business comes more money and with more money comes a more ambitious CSR program.

Maybe, five to ten years from now, I’ll look back at this post and say, “Goodness, am I the dreamer.” Maybe then, the whole vision might have proven itself too big, too grandiose to be achieved. Maybe then, I would have changed priorities and would have neglected it (Example: “Gosh, maybe I’m destined to be a Jesuit after all! So why am I still trying to build a business?”) Maybe then, I can only laugh and say, “Goodness, I was so naïve.”

Or maybe then, I get to achieve this and the vision comes true. Who knows, right? Either way, I’ve laid it down here. So pray that I be blessed and wish me luck.

First Spa Treatment

Buying clothes and apparel is fine. So is eating out a lot too. But you cannot say you have pampered yourself when you haven’t been to a spa. Yup, that’s right; I went with Ronron aka “Ronald Jalmasco” last Friday night to go to Wensha Spa.

I’ve heard about it lately and decided to try it out (Plus, Kit saying “Basta Pao, sulit lagi kaayo” also helped sell the idea).

Ronron and I tried inviting the others to go with us for this visit. However, it turned out we were the richest people in the world at that moment; the colleagues we invited didn’t have the money to go with us (For your information, our company has a health and wellness subsidy for each employee, a subsidy I haven’t used ever since. So I decided to use it for this spa treatment, hoping to be reimbursed real soon. So don’t worry. I’m still the cheapskate you know from years ago).

The place was quite easy to find actually. It was right across the street from the World Trade Center. When we arrived, we were quite daunted by the prices. Almost all the package prices came with 4 numbers. Luckily, we found the package Kit was talking about, the body massage for Php680.00. So we paid up and proceeded to the locker room.

One thing I think everyone remembers about Wensha Spa is the cool rubber bracelet you get. It unlocks your locker when you glide the bracelet’s metal-something over the “laser light”. Mine didn’t work perfectly though (I had to glide it over and over again before the locker door eventually opened) but the rubber bracelet beats the usual key or card.

Once we had our things taken cared for, we headed for a shower, tried out their sauna (Really hot. Thought the hairs in my nostrils went on fire every time I took a breath), and also sweated it out in their steam bath (which had menthol in the air). The one thing we didn’t try though was the jacuzzi because you had to be completely nude before you could take a dip (much like those scenes in Korean films). That was way beyond my comfort level so we decided to have our dinner.

The good thing about Wensha Spa is that, not only do they allow their guests to stay in the premises for 6 hours (or 8 in off-peak days, which is Monday to Thursday) but they also allow their guests to gorge in an all-you-can-eat buffet. We did just that. We got into our spa-issued shorts, slippers and robes and went to the dining area. And despite the fact that the food wasn’t exactly 5-star hotel cuisine, I wasn’t one to complain.

Then we headed off to the most anticipated part of the evening: the body massage.

Ron and I were led off to one of the spa’s dimly-lit rooms. We chose male masseuses because we thought their female masseuses didn’t have enough strength in their hands to get the job done. It turned out that Ron had a “porcelain body”; he was ticklish, madali lang makiliti. Even the slightest pressure in some areas was enough to make him giggle. As for my case, there were times when I couldn’t relax because the masseuse kept “touching” my junior every time he massaged my legs (Very, very uncomfortable). I don’t know if that really happens in body massages (it’s my first time, remember?) but I gave him the benefit of the doubt (Plus, he seemed straight to me). Setting that aside, that was probably one hell of a massage and I mean that in a good way. The massage culminated with the masseuse effortlessly lifting me up, giving me a full body stretch (Thank goodness, we didn’t pick female masseuses. I’d be embarrassed if they’d be forced to lift us up).

After the massage, we were left alone in the room. Ron and I planned to sleep in Wensha until our 6 hours was up but I had to try out the spa’s shabu-shabu. So I tried it out (again, my first time) and I found out shabu-shabu wasn’t my thing after all. Eating bland food simmering in an equally bland broth wasn’t exactly a moment to behold (or maybe I just didn’t know how to eat shabu-shabu). After I had my fill, Ron and I met up. He wasn’t able to sleep in the room because the air-conditioned room was getting cold. So we opted to have one last shower before heading home.

If I were to visit Wensha again, I would do it. And when I come back, I’m going to invite my family and friends along. I would do that because the fact remains: here in Manila, where could you expect an eat-all-you-can buffet, a body massage, and a bed to sleep on for only Php680.00, except in Wensha Spa (Of course, they have other services for those whose wallets are thicker and heavier)? Being there was bliss and I can’t wait to try out the other spas also.

Paolo Bataller: In a spa near you.

Sustainable Philanthropy

21 April 2009

Last Friday, April 17, 2009, Ilac Diaz was our guest speaker for our company's quarterly staff meeting. He shared about his experiences and lessons as a social entrepreneur and also talked about the projects he was and is currently involved in: electrified, self-calcifying reefs, dormitories for sailors and other migrant workers, bicycles used to power crude washing machines and spinners, earthen homes, cheap structures built from low-cost construction materials, peanut grinders and low-tech incubators using paraffin wax in tubes etc.

Before his speech, all I knew about him was that he was a former actor and a featured personality in the GoNegosyo book. But it also happened he's into a lot of things as well. In addition, much of what he was saying were ideas that I've been ruminating over since college (For once, why can’t I be the first to think of these things?).

A case in point is when he said something like this: "Good charitable institutions make themselves obsolete (This also reminds me of Nanny McPhee’s favorite line: “If you need me but don’t want me, then I have to stay. But when you want me but no longer need me, then I have to go.” I’m not sure if these are the exact lines though but, then again, I’m veering away.).” To put it another way, good charitable institutions make their beneficiaries independent.

I believe some Gawad Kalinga (GK) volunteers can relate to this, like my Mama and Papa, for example. They are GK volunteers in charge of ministries for the youth and, make no mistake, my parents are blessed with hearts for service. The only problem is that they are still human and therefore not immune to “giver’s fatigue”. I’ve seen them get frustrated at the complacency of the youth (like for instance, there is an event out of town and rather than doing their own fund raising, some are content on just asking for money, “sponsorship”, from their titos/titas. This is not all that bad except that this mere begging-for-money should also be matched by efforts of their own). I’ve seen them get frustrated at the mentality of some beneficiaries who, since they’re part of the GK community, expect that people will continue to help them and help them and help them some more.

With so much frustration, I wouldn’t be surprised if a volunteer stops giving, stops serving simply because “Kapuy na.” And why “Kapuy na?” It’s because “Wala may padulngan. Wala may nahitabo sa paghatag. Wala may nabag-o.”

“Giver’s fatigue” is a symptom and it points out to a deeper problem. Clearly, something is amiss here and a paradigm shift should be in order among some parties involved in GK if this social experiment/transformation is to remain sustainable.

That paradigm shift is what Mr. Diaz touched upon in his speech. To ensure that any charitable effort is not wasted, there should be a system, a plan, as to how the beneficiaries of the effort can maximize the assistance given and use it in the future to further their own welfare without the need for anymore external intervention (Whew. That was a mouthful. Got to edit that later on).

I remember a time in my childhood when I was so happy. You see, we had several subdivisions neighboring ours and for each neighborhood, there was a new basketball court being built “through the initiative of Boy Nograles (Hey Nograles, ever heard the word “subtlety”? I guess not. No wonder you’re in politics).” It was a great time. I loved playing basketball then because the courts were new, the boards were still intact and the concrete pavement was smooth yet gripped my slippers like Velcro.

But those times did not last. The last time I visited Davao City (which was last week), the courts were already dilapidated, forgotten.

The rings are missing because the boards are gone. Cracks are showing up on the concrete. Mud pools everywhere. It was a shame, really. But I guess this sad state of affairs was inevitable. Why? It is because I doubt if there was any kind of plan on how to maintain the courts. Sure, there must have been some transfer of ownership from the government to the homeowners but then again, there was no plan. There was no plan on how to ensure that the investment laid upon these courts (pun unintended) will be maximized.

I imagined once that I would be teaching my two younger sisters how to play basketball in one of those neighborhood courts. So much for imagining that scene.

So, my point here is that philanthropy has got to be sustainable. It’s not a one-shot deal. It’s not a vaccine where you inject a patient and he gets better for life. Clearly, there must be a worthwhile plan that empowers the community to stand on their own and chart their own destiny. As to what formula I can suggest to do just this, I don’t have any. But one thing I find in common in all the respectable and worthwhile charitable institutions I’ve seen is that these institutions treat their advocacy like a business. And by that, what I want to say is for every project they initiate, there are always parameters to follow, key performance indicators to adhere to, an ROI that needs to be achieved and more importantly, an evaluation phase where the proponents and the other parties can see if the project was worth the effort.

Clearly, I need to study more about this side of philanthropy (as opposed to the traditional way of giving, which is, well, simply to give and give again). But I do hope I can remember what I just wrote here when I grow up later in life.

Text Messages 3

20 April 2009

Oo nga... Sige, ipagdasal na lang natin ang isa't isa
Edwin Gutierrez
November 30, 2008
(Note: First time, Kuya Edwin asked me to pray.)

From the medical section of the US NASA: A scientific study conducted by a billion dollar pharmacuetical company shows that "Guyabano" or Graviola is 10,000 times stronger than chemotherapy in curing cancer. This info was forwarded to me and it might benefit your relatives, friends or loved ones so pass it on.
Ben Santiago
January 29, 2009

I like this thought. We may sometimes wonder why friends keep forwarding messages to us, let me enlighten you: we are all very busy, but still want to keep in touch; we have nothing to say, but still want to stay connected ; we have something to say, but don't know what and how to say it. Just want to let you know that you are remembered, important, loved and missed. So the next time you get a message from me, don't think of it as just another forwarded message but rather, "I remembered you".
Faith Go
March 27, 2009

Actor: Pwede manghiram ug ballpen?
Miss: Nara oh!
Actor: Dili man lagi muagi?
Miss: Muagi mana!
Actor: Sige daw! Isulat daw imong number?
Hahaha! Char char si kuya!
Rogelyn Donor
March 28, 2009

Boy: I-delete tika sa friendster ha?
Girl: Why?
Boy: Dili man gud ko ganahan na friends ra ta.
Edwin Gutierrez
March 28, 2009

Angel: Ania ko kay gisugo ko sa Ginoo, pagpahibalo nimo nga ugma na lang kutob imong kinabuhi.
Maldito: Dawata ning kwarta, ingna lang ang Ginoo nga wala ta nagkita.
Edwin Gutierrez
March 29, 2009

Top lies of boys:
10.) Promise. Di kita iiwan.
9.) Wala akong ka-text.
8.) I'm with my friends...
7.) Ikaw lang talaga.
6.) "Friend" ko yun.
5.) Wala akong load/unli.
4.) Hindi kita ipagpapalit.
3.) Kinalimutan ko na siya.
2.) Miss na kita.
1.) Mahal kita...

No. 1 life of girls:
I Believe In You...

Rogelyn Donor
April 2, 2009

Isang araw, habang nanonood ako, tumabi sa akin lola ko. Ang haba ng buhok at maitim ang damit na parang malungkot at may hawak na kutsilyo. Kinabahan ako. Nag-isip ako. Nagsalita siya. Sabi, "Apo, bagay ba sa akin ang emo?"
Rogelyn Donor
April 3, 2009

There was a man who saw a bee floundering around the water. He decided to save it by stretching out his finger but the bee stung him. The man still tried to get the bee out of the water but the bee stung him again. Another man nearby told him to stop. But he said: “It is in the nature of the bee to sting. It is in my nature to care? Why should I give up?” Don’t give up caring. Don’t give up doing good even if people around you sting.
Rogelyn Donor
April 5, 2009

One day, friendship and love met.
Love: Why do you exist when I already exist?
Friendship smiled and said: To put a smile where you leave tears.
Love asked: Well, if that’s what you do, how come there are still many people crying?
Friendship: It’s my fault, instead of doing my job, I sometimes end up doing yours.
Rogelyn Donor
April 5, 2009

Sahay ang life murag kalayo kung manglaba ka, dili ka kahilak. Timan-i nga ang mga dahon dili usa ka damgo nga gi-atsa atsa sa mga isda! Wala ka kasabot? Daghan nata!
Jam Villa
April 6, 2009

A Baby For Julie

(A short story)

It was midnight.

And all was quiet inside the Medical Center. Unlike its heyday years, the hospital now resembled a huge, haunted monolith with empty corridors and rooms, populated only by the center’s skeleton staff. This was completely understandable. People rarely got sick nowadays.

Footsteps echoed in the silence. A petite woman in a laboratory coat was strolling down the hallways. It was Dr. Julie Villa and she was simply doing the rounds, passing time away by walking down the hospital’s rooms and chatting with one of her associates every now and then. She was beautiful and, despite her newly-formed wrinkles brought about by age, one could still say she has good genes.

She looked at her watch. 12 midnight. It was time to go. Her husband would be waiting for her at home. She sighed and started for the exit. She was tired, simply because, save for the occasional accidents, she has had no opportunity to practice her profession.

She was an obstetrician after all. But she has not delivered a baby in over ten years.

As if on cue, the emergency doors slammed open. Paramedics rushed inside, bringing with them, on a stretcher, a pregnant woman in labor. She was accompanied by her bespectacled and teary-eyed husband and a swarm of police and health officials. With them was Lt. Jonell Casibang, a tall, burly man and a family friend, who immediately approached the doctor.

“No time for pleasantries, Jul. This woman was brought to the precinct by her husband”, explained Lt. Casibang. “Apparently, the husband tried to deliver the baby himself but could not. Are you still up to it?”

“Sure, I’ll do what I can”, replied Dr. Villa, her voice quivering for a moment (she would have wanted a refresher course by now). Walking down to the delivery room, where the woman was waiting and in pain, the doctor looked back on how this peculiar instance came to be.

2020. PGD. Pre-implantation Genetic Diagnosis became the buzzword of the year. Scientists had found a cheaper, more effective way to not only screen the genome of a human embryo for genetic abnormalities but, more importantly, to tweak it to remove these defects. Suddenly, with this method, diagnosis translated to intervention and, ultimately, modification. Of course, ethical issues abounded but the promise of the new technology proved irresistible. Soon, politicians harked about it, calling it the start of a new age. Lobbyists began wooing Congress to shortcut protocol and allow experiments on “at risk” human embryos. Activists joined in the fray, heralding it as the beginning of a new human race.

The promise was simple and true: Embryo-state genetic modifications will usher in an era where humans will be unsusceptible to diseases and, possibly, even death.

Soon, opposition ceased and new laws ratified. It became standard practice for doctors to alter an embryo’s genetic make-up. Third-world nations greatly benefited, finally freed from the shackles of pharmaceutical companies. Inevitably, parents began clamoring for more drastic procedures, involving “improving” their offspring’s traits.

Designer babies became the new norm. Despite this, the world was not concerned. It was simply happy. For three generations, everyone on earth was beautiful. No paraplegics, no patients, no more incurable diseases, no more pain. Just a wonderful utopia.

But that was before.

The doctor had started scrubbing her hands diligently, all the while staring at the mirror in front of her. Though she felt haggard, her face did not show any trace of it. She had a well-formed nose, good spotless skin and a pair of fiery brown eyes. She was beautiful and she would have been more conceited about that fact had she been ignorant of what she really was.

She does not bear any semblance to her parents or more specifically, their “imperfections”. She is a designer baby, like the rest of the world now, engineered from birth to live life equipped with the best physical qualities. Her parents, like every other parent then, endeavored to have a pretty, and smart, child. And, like everyone else, they were especially keen in modifying their offspring.

At this thought, she wringed her hands especially tight and donned on her gown. “Now look what you’ve done to us”, she muttered.

Dr. Villa entered the operating room and was greeted by a scene similar to an inquisition. The woman was restrained to the hospital bed with leather strips. She was sweating, face contorted, due to her extended labor. Encircling her was a throng of grim-faced policemen touting pistols and batons. Anonymous interns hiding beneath surgical masks tinkered with instruments across the room. What they could not hide though was the look of apprehension and fear in their eyes.

“Let’s do this”, said Dr. Villa, unfazed by the show of force. With a renewed coolness, she began giving out instructions and assisted the woman in giving birth.

Dr. Villa has been married for twenty years. No children. Just her husband’s companionship. Early in her marriage, she would have wanted it this way. Having no child meant no complications and her life was complicated enough. She and her husband have had a rough start. Fights between the couple broke out ever so often, both were not sure their marriage would last. Having no child was part of her exit plan.

Then the tragedies came and finally, the ban. Governments made it illegal for anyone to produce offspring. Even the Catholic Church began advocating contraception and sterilization for everyone’s safety.

It was then that the couple realized what they will be missing: they could never raise kids, let alone start a family, for a very long time. The specter of this possibility surprisingly rekindled their marriage. Realizing they only had each other from now on, earlier animosity turned to genuine love.

But sometimes, even love cannot replace a woman’s eventual desire to be a mother. And with deep regret, Dr. Villa nursed this desire in her heart.

She could still remember the scenes vividly. Always, whenever there was a newborn child, relatives would cause a flurry, touching, fondling, cooing the infant. The mother, carrying her child, was always the star of the show. As a doctor, she was always there to watch those scenes. She was always there in the many occasions that her patients would finally go home to be greeted by loved ones. For Dr. Villa, such scenes of familial affection never failed to make her smile.

Many times, she had relived each scene, this time, picturing herself as the mother with her newborn. For every scene, she would always imagine doing the same thing: stroke her lovely child’s forehead while singing a lullaby. Each time, she hoped that picture would become a reality.

However, the ban took longer than expected. Governments assured their people that the ban would be lifted after two years. Now, after a decade, it was still in place. Soon, there were no more babies. The babies she delivered a long time ago where now aging teenagers. Formerly an obstetrician, she was now relegated to leading the hospital’s staff. “Welcome to a world without children”, she thought.

Finally, it was over. Cutting its umbilical cord, Dr. Villa placed the baby in its incubator. Then, everyone rushed the baby to the nursery, leaving the mother behind. Dr. Villa stared at the infant. Its skin still glistening, its eyes closed, the baby looked like the perfect angel and seemed so fragile. The white gleam of teeth showed between its lips but the doctor still found her self asking: What could possibly be wrong with this child?

They’ve reached the “nursery”, a dimly lit room with bulletproof fiber-glass walls on all sides. Operatives in heavy suits awaited them and the baby. Dr. Villa placed the incubator in the center of the room. Everyone left right after, leaving the operatives to do their work. A crowd of doctors, interns and policemen were now standing outside the nursery, looking through its glass walls. The crowd simply stood outside waiting, as if in a state of vigil, both anticipating and dreading what will happen next.

Everyone held their breath. Only the ticking of the clock in the far end of the corridor disturbed the loud silence. Five minutes passed.

Dr. Villa glanced around. At a distance, she saw the mother, fresh from labor, struggling to get past her guards. She was screaming, begging them to let her see her baby. The police would not budge and were preventing her from coming out of her room. Dr. Villa saw the husband, trying to embrace his wife from behind, stopping her.

Dr. Villa shifted her attention back to the nursery. Ten minutes had passed.

The operatives started looking at each other. The baby remained perfectly still. Now, everyone began inching closer to the fiberglass walls. Clearly, something must be odd here. Dr. Villa noticed this and also took a closer peek as well. Could this be happening right now? Could this moment possibly be the end of a long nightmare?

Fifteen minutes passed. Still nothing had happened. Finally, an operative smiled at the crowd outside the nursery. And, like a virus, smiles began creeping up on everybody’s faces. This might just be too good to be true.

An operative was ordered to get the baby from its cradle. “Please, let nothing happen”, whispered Dr. Villa. As the operative now gingerly walked towards the cradle, Dr. Villa watched the baby intently for any adverse movement.

Just then, she saw a twitch, normally imperceptible but she knew it was there. “Oh no”, she muttered. She tried to believe she was simply imagining but she knew. Alarmed, Dr. Villa stood, frozen, as the operative gathered the baby in his arms.

In a flash, all hell broke loose.

An hour had passed. Lt. Casibang and Dr. Villa were now sitting on bleacher seats outside the mother’s room. Each cradling a steaming mug of coffee, both peered at the room, where a police officer was reading indictments against the mother and her husband. Puffy-eyed from too many tears, the mother stared blankly at the police officer. The husband appeared dazed.

“They are supposed to get ten years for violating the ban. But they can just pay the bail and go home immediately”, said Lt. Casibang.

“You think that’s fair?” asked Dr. Villa.

“Professionally speaking, they ought to face the judge. But personally? After what they went through? I think that’s enough punishment for the two of them. Still, I’ll be keeping a close eye on them just in case.”

“You know what made them do this, Jon?”

“Based on what we know, the woman lost a child during pregnancy. That was two months before they enacted the ban. Apparently, after a decade, she might have wanted another one and her husband was all too willing to play along.”

“You sure know how to make a convenient explanation. Did both know of the consequences?”

“Yes, I believe so. But they probably thought they could get away with it, that the baby, against all odds, will be normal. Or so they thought.”

“Lt. Casibang gently sipped his coffee and continued. “I don’t know about you doc. But I think what happened awhile ago can be considered good news. It took more than twenty minutes since birth before the transformation. A world record, you might say. It must mean the vaccines they keep prodding us with are working. We are getting well.”

“But not getting well enough.”

“Yes. But still, it is not bad to be optimistic nowadays. There are signs of hope everywhere we look.”

“Things can still change, Jon. We are making progress. But we have to be realistic. This reversal of everything we have done to ourselves will take generations, not years.”

An uncomfortable silence reigned for a few minutes.

The lieutenant stared at his mug. “Last night, a funny thing happened. Carla approached me, pointed a finger, and looked at me straight in the eye, saying: For Christmas, I want a baby brother!”

He let out a hollow laugh. “Imagine that, my eleven-year old kid, ordering me around! But, of course, she has been demanding the same thing ever since she was seven. Wish she would forget that request though.”

Because it breaks my heart.

Dr. Villa assumed this following statement but the lieutenant simply let out a very long sigh. She got the signal and changed the topic.

“How are your men? Will they be all right?”

“They will be. Gani suffered a big gash on his neck, right next to his artery. But he’ll live. Still, it was a close call. I could have lost someone tonight. Or today.”

Dr. Villa looked at her watch again. The dawn is coming. It was 3:00 AM.

“You better be going home now”, the lieutenant quipped.

“No. I have to do a post-mortem on the baby. I can’t leave yet.” Dr. Villa collected herself and started for the morgue.

Ten years ago, the world admitted there was a problem. After tampering with the human genome for three generations, scientists had unavoidably unleashed a Pandora’s Box. New mutations had occurred among newly-born babies. Some have called these mutations as quantum leaps of evolution but for the many, they were simply monstrosities. And the most horrific mutation yet was what Dr. Villa witnessed in the nursery.

As the operative was holding it, the baby suddenly lunged at the operative’s throat and sank its mouth into it. Commotion reigned as the operatives tried to rip the baby’s mouth off their colleague’s throat. By the time they had, chunks of flesh, a pool of blood, and a dying man was sprawled on the nursery floor.

Under the harsh light of the fluorescent bulbs, the doctor finally had a good look at the baby, spatters of blood still clinging to the side of its mouth. Gone was its semblance of fragility. What was in front of her now was a dreadful specimen. It had overdeveloped, bulging muscles for arms and legs. Its mouth featured a daunting array of razor-sharp teeth.

The twitch was the signal. Back in the nursery, the baby moved because its muscles were now starting to develop and grow at lightning-fast rates. The white gleam of teeth Dr. Villa saw earlier were already fully-grown teeth developed even before the baby was born.

Reports had finally revealed what was happening and investigations had already explained incidents such as these. Recent mutations have caused babies to suddenly become voracious cannibals. Infantile reflexes, such as suckling and eating, have been transformed to bestial instincts as infants, in a matter of minutes, become mindless, eating machines fearfully equipped with the body, and the mouthpiece, for the job.

After months of searching for an answer, scientists finally concluded that all modified humans, ergo, almost everyone in the world, were at risk of producing mutant offspring. Hence, the ban was set in place until a cure was found.

“This must be the price,” said Dr. Villa, still looking intently at the baby. It was pathetic, not even an hour old and it had to be killed. There were three bullet shot wounds in its chest and abdomen. Pitiful, little creature.

Slowly, Dr. Villa gathered the dead baby in her arms. She squatted at one corner of the morgue and looked out at the room’s single window. It was now early morning and soon, rays of sunlight would come through that single window. The baby at her bosom, in the state of rigor mortis, was cold and as stiff as ice.

She stroked the baby’s forehead and began singing a lullaby.

Note: This story was my entry for the 3rd Philippine Graphic Fiction Awards last year (Until now, I don’t know if anybody won in that contest. I’ve been trying to search the Internet for results to no avail). I actually thought up this story purely by accident. I really wanted to join the contest but I couldn’t think of anything to write, let alone fantasy. Good thing I asked Kuya Dom for some advice and he texted me some notable supernatural beings from popular Filipino folklore. That’s how I got started with the story.

As for why I chose the name Julie, I promised a college classmate that I would write a story with her name on it. I guess now, she wouldn’t be too flattered if she manages to read this.

To sum it up, I believe there’s really nothing new with what I had to say in this story. Reading it again, I think I unwittingly borrowed the storyline from some video game and just transplanted it here. Despite this realization, I hope this was as fun to read as it was fun for me to write. Good night.

Life After Easter

13 April 2009

No. I'm not going to talk about Lenten season or Holy Week (although I feel like I should). It's just that, since Easter has come and gone, I might as well perform my own "Resurrection" too. That would mean getting started with some changes in my life that would probably benefit me (and others) tremendously. As to what changes I'm pertaining to, I guess everyone will know once I'm actually doing them and applying them in my life.

This is going to be fun. "Reinvention" always is. Until then, stay tuned. Happy post-Easter everyone!

Me Don't Like Dispatchers

06 April 2009

I first met these breed of men (and frequently, even women are now joining the charade) when I was in college. They just popped up literally. One afternoon, I was on my way home from another stressful day in school when suddenly I heard shouts, “Toril, SM, Matina!” I glanced at the conductor of the jeep but he was silent. Then I looked outside and saw a big man doing the shouting, while waving his arm at no one. When the jeep was full, the man went to the driver and got “rewarded” with coins.

Since then, dispatchers have become commonplace in Davao. In SM, you have dispatchers who meet you while you’re crossing the road, persuading you to ride this jeep because of a multitude of reasons which often turn out to be lies (e.g. “kesyo puno na, hapit na murayga, naa pay sulod, bakante pa etc.”). In NCCC Maa, you also have dispatchers who stick to the side of the jeep, like barnacles. There are also dispatchers who make it a habit of slapping the side of the jeep and ordering people to move and make way, as if he was herding some animals for slaughter.

When I transferred to Manila, it was the same thing, albeit more worse. At every stop of the jeep, there is a dispatcher. There are also dispatchers for taxis so when you ride a taxi, you have to prepare Php 5.00 for them too. In some parts of Manila, especially where I live, things are getting institutionalized. Now, they have “tickets”, which the driver pays for “services” to be rendered.

As for me, I am not amused. And looking at the faces of these men, there is only one thing I can say: pathetic. Clearly, this line of work does nothing to help the nation’s economy. Also, one has to wonder if everyone understands the absurdity of dispatching jeeps, which is that: you are barking on people to ride this jeep, people who otherwise know what jeep they should take or know how to read the travel signs in front and on the jeep’s side.

In short, dispatchers are superfluous, redundant, unnecessary. They are like glorified beggars, bleeding jeepney drivers and operators alike simply by appearing to be busy in road stops. For every peso a driver receives as revenue, certainly there is a portion of that which goes to the dispatchers (If there be another price hike in jeep fares, then we can blame the dispatchers, apart from the usual oil price hikes and uncontrolled inflation).

When I suggested to my father that dispatching be illegalized, he said that dispatching does help. For those who don’t have jobs, dispatching is a way to still put food on the table. Although I am one to argue relentlessly, I saw the point.

But I still don’t like them. I don’t like that they get to stand and bark at people all day. I don’t like that they make me appear like an idiot who doesn’t know what jeep I should take. I don’t like that money for them comes relatively easy and doesn’t demand the sort of emotional and physical stress real work requires. I don’t like that they get away with doing nothing.

I don’t like them. And neither should you.

Going To The Airport

05 April 2009

Ever saw the film about a man, portrayed by Tom Hanks, who got stuck in the airport and had to live inside it for a couple of days because of a diplomatic problem of sorts? The title of the movie eludes me but I feel like I'm reliving one of its scenes.

Today, I'm idling away my time at the departure lounge of NAIA 3 and apparently, I'll be idling away more time here until 5 pm this afternoon (I arrived at past 7 am). How exactly this happened is worthy of a lengthy narration so allow me to review what transpired in the 24 hours prior to this unexpected circumstance.

April 3, 2009

7:00 am
Woke up at 6 with the sniffles. Had a decent sleep last night considering that I'd slept only an hour the other night and slept less than 4 hours the previous nights. This week, preparations and other last minute cramming sessions for a marketing event had taken a toll on my body. Feel slightly feverish because of lack of sleep. I shower up and head to Crowne Plaza. Today is the last day of the event. Good riddance.

10:00 am
Manning the company's booth and distributing the fliers. Pretty boring stuff but someone has to do it. Good thing sales is here: a lot of people to talk to and laugh with while wasting away the day. I don't like events now (I never liked them the first time either).

12:00 am
Had lunch with a colleague in Galleria. Restaurant pretty much reminded me of Mandarin Tea Garden in Davao, only with larger servings and more exorbitant prices. Lunch is company expense. Secretly wondering when I'll ever file for company reimbursements.

2:00 pm
Back to booth. Announcing some raffle winners, I think. Feel groggy by the minute (despite the coffee). A couple of hours and this will all be over soon.

4:00 pm
This event is not going to generate a high number of leads. Traffic is not good and the business cards are not dropping. Hopefully, that man who's interested in one of our services will really avail of it. Realized that I had to make a post-event report. That would probably wait until I come back from vacation.

6:00 pm
Great. Egress. But JR is nowhere to be found. Centrex is already dismantling the booth systems. I'm left with our booth furniture. I'm alone; the rest have gone. That's marketing for you: early to arrive and always the last to go. Right now, we don't have transport for the egress so good luck.

8:00 pm
Waiting for a taxi in Galleria with JR. Lining up with a bunch of people who keep looking at us, eyeing at what we have: a bar table and four bar stools. Earlier, a Chinese guy approached us, asking where we bought our stuff. Said it was for an event and, no, we don't know where the company bought them. On hindsight, we could have said we'll tell him, if he gives us a lift.

10:00 pm
In the office. Spent two hours waiting for a taxi. That's how bad it gets here in Manila. Pity that poor American with kids in tow. He couldn't take it anymore and wandered off the line. Welcome to Manila, Joe.

April 4, 2009

12:00 am
I'm home finally. After staying in the office, I met with Ciara and Clinton, ate very late dinner. Still had to pack though but a nap won't hurt. Went upstairs to say to Glenda that I'm going with her to the airport. She's leaving by 4 am. No problem, I thought, I can get myself ready by then. Timed the cellphone alarm at 1:30 and slept.

2:00 am
Am I still sleeping? You bet I am. Obviously, alarm did not work.

4:00 am
Clinton wakes me up. Glenda is outside, waiting. Told her I could not go with her. I still had to pack. I begin packing my luggage, all the while shooting accusatory glances at my sleeping roommates (The guy had to pack but where did my nail cutter go?).

6:00 am
Ok. I'm along the East Service Road. Lots of jeeps , no taxi in sight. i know I'm late and this is not good, not good at all.

8:00 am
Lining up at the counter to rebook my ticket. Trying to practice what the Jesuits call "indifference". Rationalizing that, since I've marked this Saturday to be the day I make up on sleep, it didn't matter if I slept in Davao or in the cozy confines of the airport. But it's not working anyhow. Plus, I didn't know rebooking costs this much (Concentrate Paolo! "It's just money, it's just money, it's...just..money.")

So here I am. My flight is at 5pm, April 4, 2009, bound for Davao. And yep, it's entirely my fault but not entirely my fault either. Though I was the one who masterminded every decision leading to this incident, I can still say there were a lot of factors involved. It doesn't relieve me of the blame anyway but it's a comforting thought nonetheless.

Ok. Let's go back to sleep.

Handwritten April 4, 2009 at 10:13 am at the NAIA 3 Terminal.

 

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