Testify Chronicles: Why They Say No To Premarital Sex

An excerpt from the Testify Chronicles

We surveyed 100 YFC* brothers and here are their top 14 answers:

1.) Because it is a special gift from God
2.) I'm scared!
3.) Sabi kasi ni God, masunurin ako.
4.) Because it is sacred and I'm too young.
5.) I'm not ready. Takot ako makabuntis.
6.) Sawa na ako.
7.) Walang lugar.
8.) Baka hindi na matigilan.
9.) Because I am not yet ready for the consequences it might lead to.
10.) Because it is not yet time...diba? Bata pa tayo!!!
11.) I respect the girl
12.) Ayoko mawalan ng integrity
13.) I want to have a sweet, perfect first night with my wife.
14.) I want to present my wife to God pure and clean.

*Youth For Christ

Testify Chronicles: If You Can Talk To God, What Will You Ask?

An excerpt from the Testify Chronicles

Am I good enough to go to heaven?
Bakit mo kinuha agad ang Papa ko?
Is there really life after death?
Bakit may mga taong naghihirap?
Where did you come from?
Why can't we fly?
Bakit po may giyera? =(
Am I worthy of your blessings?
WHERE IS MY GG (GOD's GIFT) ?!?!!!
Bakit mo kami sa earth nilagay? Hindi ba pwede sa pluto?
Can you show my future?
Kelan po kayo darating? Sana bilisan ninyo.
When will I die?
Why do people feel pain?
Bakit hindi naniniwala sa iyo friends ko?
Bakit mo ako super love? =)
Will I get married? What is my vocation?
Have I fulfilled my calling to serve you?
Meron po ba talagang HELL? Have you been there?
What happens to the souls in purgatory?
Magagalit ka ba kung magbackslide ako?

Testify Chronicles: Letter To The Baby I Killed

An excerpt from the Testify Chronicles

My dearest child,

I don't know how to even begin to tell you how so very sorry I am for killing you. I don't know what came over me. When your mother told me she was pregnant, I lost my mind. I thought only of myself. How my studies would be affected. How my freedom would be gone. How my style would be cramped. How my future would be ruined. How my parents would kill me.

I told your mom to get rid of you. To kill you. I told her that you were not yet a person, that you were just a blob of blood, that it was best for her that we solved the problem that you were to us. And I brought her to this place where this old woman stabbed you with this piece of metal. Your mom screamed. I heard her. You must have screamed too. I didn't hear you. But it is your scream that keeps on echoing in my mind every day and every night.

Forgive me, my precious one. I pray to GOD to keep you, protect you, take good care of you and give you the love I was too selfish to give. Forgive me, my sweet and beloved baby. Forgive me even though I am the most undeserving of it.

And sleep, my cherished one. Sleep the slumber of the innocent. Sleep the peace that I seek to find for myself but can't seem to have. And pray for me too, my darling child. I know that GOD will listen to your prayer and forgive me for the unspeakable horror I've done...

Dad

Testify Chronicles

Found another gem while cleaning my room for the nth time. I found my copy of the Testify Chronicles.

I bought this one during my trip to Clark Expo, Pampanga for the YFC-ILC (Youth For Christ International Leaders Conference) way back in high school. I had spare money then to buy this and I haven't regretted my purchase since.

Why? It's because the book pretty much helped me define what values I should hold for the next decade. It talked about abstinence from sex, about building up one's self-esteem, about being a Christian youth in today's society. Needless to say, this book was one of the factors I could attribute to the fact that, right now, I have not been addicted to drugs or alcohol, have not fathered an illegitimate child, and have been searching for God until today.

I'm going to "copy paste" some excerpts from the book in this blog. And yes, I did not ask permission from the publisher so I should apologize here and now. But I think every youth needs to be assured that being a good Christian is cool and a lot of people are out there doing the same thing. 

Peace out.

Thinking About My Lovelife (Or The Absence Thereof)

My younger sister had once remarked to my Ate that she was the only hope for her to have a pamangkin (niece/nephew). That was because all three of her brothers didn't have girlfriends and weren't frantically looking for one either.

My mother, on the other hand, had noticed this fact way earlier and had questioned me every once so often if I was seeing someone. I would always have the same answer ("No") and every time I answered this question, I always felt a bit relieved that I was born a boy and a bit guilty that the world could be so unfair to the opposite sex.

For the record, my younger sister was right and wrong. Rayray was admittedly dating someone, a fact he revealed one Sunday morning during my mother's subtle inquisitions. Bulec, my other younger brother, was in love with "Acer" and another computer which he had painstakingly assembled. I, for one, am in love with myself and the problem with that is it leaves me little time to look for a worthy competitor to my attention.

Just kidding.

The truth is that maybe Cupid did leave me behind. As I've explained to others, who pitied me enough to ask me why I never had a girlfriend, I have never had any moment in my life when I felt so driven to date or court a girl. Sure, I had crushes but I have never graduated beyond infatuation nor have craved to go beyond the initial attraction.

Perhaps, that's because having a girlfriend was and is never among my priorities. Or maybe an inferiority complex is what I have, subconsciously stopping me from going any further because I know I'm not yet the man. Or maybe my desire to still be a priest has made me for resolute to remain single.

Or maybe I just can't move on from the fact that my ultimate crush is now married to someone else.

Just kidding. I made that one up.